my life

2007-03-30T11:53:00.001-07:00

Smoking kills... not a joke pls

2007-03-30T11:53:00.000-07:00

Smoking kills... not a joke pls

2007-03-30T11:49:00.000-07:00

odac ijc

My Dream...my-life finial episode!

2007-02-15T10:55:00.000-08:00

Thats my family guys...a photoshot during one of our important functions anyway i wanna state this crystal
clear too all my beloved frenz out there...i have this dream that i wanna acheive and i will acheive it!

1) I wanna give education to a minimum of 1 kid. That too for a poor kid, not my flesh and blood from young at least. This dream was not jus a mere wish that sprang out recently but has been in me since my pri 4 to be exact.I will do it no matter what even at the cost of my life.My role model my ex-teacher Mr Tan.

2)I don really care what the future might hold,but then this is my wish no matter what hardship i go through i must Aces it... i know can do it

3) I don wanna get married unless its a love marriage futhermore my wife should take in those kids i wanna give education...I beleive that only when you go through hardship,away from your parents to study, and got a sponcer for your problems will you appreciate what is given to you...thats what i wanna do give education to a kid who has come from such background.

4)Lastly i wanna adopt this kids bring them up like my own kids...only then will they appreciate me and only then will the acheive BIG things in their life...I WILL DO IT & YOU ARE GOONA SEE IT.

Anyway i don really care about my life, i live the way i wanna live the only think that i do care about is i should have the means to support these kids and this kids must create a positive impact to the world

MT CHINESE NAME DONE BY A CHINESE PRIEST AT THIS TEMPLE!

2007-02-13T02:39:00.000-08:00

Adrift

2007-02-11T07:23:00.000-08:00

Today went to fix my dads spectacle at LOT 1 and then accidently bumped into Dwayne.Later went out to catch a movie "Adrift". Wow it was preety Awsome man how @#% blah..blah..blah go n watch it yourself yah. This was wat happened the moment i stepped into the theater i donno why i had this fear that smth was trying to grab my attention...im not crazy nor scared of dark pls lah this fear was the very same fear that i felt before during my NPCC camp went things went teribbly wrong ( was conducted during the chinese 7th month)...yah nth went wrong managed to watch the movie in peace at least ...jus rembered this was the same fear i had when i had this bad dream jus recently..... Lord im nor scared if i know wats happening im scared only if i dont know wats going on so can you update me!

I still have it..here is a copy

2007-02-10T08:41:00.000-08:00

Today had a preetty tiring day out in the sun for I@FUN. Had a good business, went home to rest on the way bumped into one of my frenz from CCKSS & CCKPS. Had a great deal of laughter and fun. Then she asked me a qn which really set me to think....

SHE: Raj you were one of my frens that i miss alot, your stupid and irritating comments on purpose and silly action, blur look...

ME: Wow look like somebody here got crush on me (i teased and laugh at this point)...no la jus kidding you know me right.

SHE: Raj do you still have all the pic,cards that our class gave you?

ME: Why? i do have at home you wanna see them?

SHE: NO lah... jus that i miss our class

SHE: I broke up with my stead, ( this moment i teased her thinking she was pulling my leg, then i jus told her its nth its normal...this was wat made me to pounder)

SHE: ( i was telling her abt the WHY stuff..sorry told her to comfort her and how normal it is only)...Raj you serious, you know.... what is not meant to be yours will never be yours & what is meant to be yours will be yours...Someone told me this... its very rare to find a person who loves the person whom loves him/her.

ME: This moment i was thinking ,yah wat she said was true , infact you shld agree with her, whatever happens is for our own good only after a certain time period do we realise it. And how many of you at least appreciate at least the person who do things for you...lend you to copy HW,buy drink...how many!

What i wanna say is simple pls appreciate everyone around you. Lets stay and study as a class. At least have this thinking that no matter what i shld nv think smth bad abt him/her.Treat everyone as you sis/bro

Stress how to deal with it?

2007-01-26T08:20:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone out there, i do agree with you that this year is A'levels and that it is very hectic and stressful year ahead.But then remember one impt think only if you think it is stressful will you then feel the stress. During such occasion firstly go for a long and solo journey like ride from cck to amk for instance or a long bus ride...during this moment talk to yourself and find out how to improve yourself from this present suituation.For instance if chem exams are round the corner and you are failing the exams think of possible solution...like today i will wake up at 2 am in the morning and study Energetics chap. Force yourcelf to do it. If you do such a small step then at the end of the day it will be great...trust me i do this myself. Never stay up late to mug its useless and stupid as your brain function becomes weary and slow...wake up early in the morning in this way you tend to reduce your stress tooo! i do that ...thats the reason you see me less stressful and cherry everyday or shld i say mos of the time. Don think abt ...Oooh shit many ppl are expecting alot frm me Ooo shit...this only makes you stressful and you cant concentrate do it for yourself...only if you start to do it for yourself will you then tend to relax and concentrate better.....Lastly if you keep on worring abt money like Ooo shit my parents are working very hard 4 me i shld help them ....anth along this line pls wake up they are doing it 4 you so why are you not concentrating in your studies and thinking of such thoughts...come on slap yourself you can do it...you are smart you will score...hope this was useful to all out there especially to yeo ...think you are going through alot of stress unnecessarly ....wake up your close frenz(lim,illene) are there 4 you and as a classmate i support you as well ...pls don be stress and stop being a alarmist and think too much think of what you can acheive now...

WALLA no time no time!!!!

2007-01-21T07:03:00.002-08:00

walla this whole week did not touch book lah wth. friday had chem test too "easy" 4 my standard jus left the organics chem blank only.Then had to pack stuff 4 ODAC only left with me and wei xiang lah..luckly the day be4 alloy had already got ready the equipments. Had to carry all this stuff to wei xiang house lah. Then had to write the clues 4 the amazing race on sat slept only at 2 am, ppl say my clues only i understand ...all i can say is ppl pls ues your brains and read the map before reading my clues its way below my standard i guess. like "daydream" & "sea of greens" arhh! anyway after reach mainland had to ruch to my cousin's house for prayers lah ...not tired ppl here are very fit hahah. On sunday had to go to temple for graduation ceremony for my frenz and bro. After which had to go n buy hamster cage then to cck to take dinner.

On the way back saw this bloddy IJC fellow frm w^%& cca lah. I know him he also knows me ... said hi cant reply not even a smile .WTF you know this year i am indeed trying my 100% best to reduce vulgarities and anger but at times ppl jus ask for it. At that moment i could have bashed him up luck shld have it i controlled my emotions. i am small ok i am thin ok its fine but i am BIG and FAT in terms of respect. I do eye wash when i see gals i do talk ill of ppl but when i talk to gals i only look into their eyes ...when i talk to ppl i talk frm my heart its not jus a mere words if i feel like scolding you i do scold. Wat im saying is next time pls at least smile when the person smile back at least ....Are we losing our respect,moral values in this sophisicated world.

WALLA no time no time!!!!

2007-01-21T07:03:00.000-08:00

Wat will you do if you were in my shoe?

2007-01-15T05:04:00.000-08:00

Wow JC2 ready still having fun isit too bad or am i just a typical "IJC" guy a slacker? anyway on 13/01 was at Bt Merah rd. Was waiting 4 my uncle to pick me up to one of my distant grandma's funeral...yah recently she passed away. Anyway while waiting saw a motorist skid and fall. Initially shock lah, then rush forward to help carry his bike and bring him to the curb...ya he sprained his ankle. Talk to him is like talking to my ass lah....no reply maybe he was in a shock lah.Anyway bought some plaster for him( He was ok no major injuries) he declined. Then he jus sat on the curb and stare at his bike lah. I think he is really in "dreamland" anyway after that he left lah. Felt siok helping him wahaha. Then today after Phy went causeway with Winston and Kent to eat. Ate frm a korean store tooo spicy enjoyed the food walla it was simply mouth watering.

Shooting Star wat a rare sight!

2007-01-07T07:05:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone, today i had a mentor meeting at a temple . Was given a chance to tell to a group of ppl out there how i wanna transform myself and the students and etc. Anyway thats not the point!!!!After that me myself, ramraj(cousin),naresh(cousin) and prakesh raja(uncle). Went to Mount Faber Safra to play pool. Firstly we went opposite the safra to drink a cup of tea..mine milo as always. After which we saw some small kids playing football. My uncle said lets join them for fun and make them happy. Though relectant i countinued. It was a fair play, all the kids laughing and enjoying the game.All of a sudden Naresh said uncle..uncle a shootind star. I looked up and saw this beautiful bright green shooting star zooming past the sky ...not that fast as you would see in television.I confirmed it that it was not a plane,rocket yah!.Only the 4 of us saw it no one else. The next moment my uncle called up another uncle( bro sunther). He said 4 us to sit silently and pray 4 a while. Then when i got home i was asked to pray to ask the loard why did we only see it ....Theni got this reply by flipping a page from a calender with the lord's pic and quotes...this was wat i saw..."The minimum qualification for the grace of god is the surrender of ego" walla wat an ans wat an ans...just felt like sharing with you one more final thing you know wats JOY ...this was wat i heard from my aunt....Jeseus first,Others second,Yourself last....in this content Jeseus means to me all god ...i believe all god is one and do pray to all god ....is this wat im XXX!

So close to death wahaha thnx for praying 4 me

2006-12-30T09:33:00.000-08:00

Hi guys anyway thnx for your concerns, was really moved yah. Anyway this was wat had happened...(flashback). On 27th dec early evening at abt 7-8 pm my body temp went up to 39 degree.....took medicine went to bed.....early morning 4 am (28 dec) temp went to 40.5 degree...took ambuluance 1711 lah went to Alexzendra family doc there mah!...then took a jab and sleep....fever nv came down went up again to 42 critical yah am i sizzling hot wahaha...got a jab again....mos impt my bros' and sis' prayed 4 me not forgotting my parents(pay-rents)....the nurse there took extra care put "ice-cube" donno wats that cold stuff lah...under my armpits,around my neck,and groin area...kukumalu lah...then doc said wait till like one day or so if temp go down and steady can be discharge...then at abt 11am on fri 29 got discharge...went to vivo for lunch walk a while went home then to temple to pray and say thnx lah!....

That night to celebrate my brother and i went to LCK to hang out n fishing...fish there like no fish but with patience you can get 2kg weight of fish...that night no luck..wanna go home ...bro thought me how to use gear 2nd time ..decided to try luck went smoothly lah (natural talent!) at speed abt 20-25 kph..not bad able to turn at corners ...not perfect lah got put sudden brake one! haha very soon you will see RDK around ...RAJ the DRIFT KING..wahaha thnx yah.

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!

2006-12-25T08:23:00.000-08:00

walla christmas rox man had great fun ...was drowned in the mood of joy BABAY!! wahaha. On the eve of christmas went to my cousin house at 2000 had sat-sang...later indulge ourself in the food coco..log cakes and many more. After which went to my aunts' house again food and drinks. Then went to my place watch some movies....it was great man. After abt 0200 went to lim chu kang to play hide n seek in the graveyards very scary lah but played in pairs of course.Then we did some car-racing from the start of the lck road to the jetty. The car i travelled on reached the place 1st siok man no police wahaha.Then my cousins thought me how to drive the car....erm not bad for starter i guess....wait a sec i can see the rd pls not that short.Later tried to ride mortorbike but failed fall many times wahaha no great injerious.This year i got tickets to Zuke 16 tickets wahaha im going with my frens and cousins to enjoy 16 already wat. Hope n pray that i don get forced to drink or smoke wahaha. I wont lah!!!...By the way, winston do watch your words and take care.

2006-12-22T10:56:00.001-08:00

odac ijc

2006-12-22T10:56:00.000-08:00

odac ijc

Gunong Ayam

2006-12-12T21:49:00.001-08:00

Yes i am finally back to the mainland..S'pore. Back to my beloved bed and comforts.The trip was mentally challenging though not that physically demanding for ppl frm uniform grps who had gone through obstacle tranning i guess. Any way here is wat had happen:

Day 1:

Trek from sch to johor checkpoint and to the train station. Had dinner at the Mcdonalds. The Mc food was super different and omg no curry source.Anyway the train ride to dabong was siok learned to play bridge and still a noob.Later played Big 2 with jj, amanda lee, liting,xin ying, yes able to win a no of matches through cunning ways wahaha im evil i guess sorry lah.Did not sleep till abt 2+ in the morning and alloy kept on scolding us to sleep.... a very good watch dog.

Day 2

Arrive at Dabong at abt 8+. Had nasi lemak with chicken which did not taste like one. Anyway after that went for caving.That was the best part...i had no lights and had to depend on ppl 4 light to find my way.Saw rock crystals which glittered like dimonds, very beautiful.Thnx to cassendra and my rock climbing skills i was able to go through the rock walls quite smoothly.And not forgotting my slender body wahaha. Then went to the foot of the 1433m high mountain with 7 waterfalls and the highest at the height of 343m high the tallest in south-east-asia. frm the foot of the mountain we trek to the base camp.The ground was super muddy many ppl did slip or shld i say slide down a bit.Thnx to my army boots had no prob. same time made close fren with Bob our local guide. Reach base camp pitch two tents. But had winston in my grp,Haix had a "fight" over the pitching of bacha over our tent. Did not go to the top of waterfalls..thnx winston but its ok lah. had a bath with winston,mr sim at another waterfall.. the water so cold lah.after that had a chit-chat session with bob and his gang and ate his wonderful biscuts...thnx bob it was filling.

Day 3

Trek frm the base camp to summit.walla that was the most siok part. Had numerous high and rocky and steep rocks to climb.walaa rock climbing with cassendra was sooo useful.Its all abt balance guys.You know i regretted wearing singlet...got a leech bite near my nipple.Kannina i burned the leech alive...its my blood....i know i am sweet so is my blood but no sucking pls. Everytime ask the front man for how long same reply 4 min ...4 min...arhh!when reach summit super cold lah .... no jacket...no sleeping bag...cannot sleep for past 7 hrs till winston lend me his jacket then slept for less the 1 hrs.

Day 4

Had to terk frm the summit to the foot of the mountain. was with JJ our last man.He is the man guys. So patient and thoughtful. Everytime i take a leap for easy desend he will reprimand me. he talk soothing words and we talk abt everything under the sun. Next sang many songs with winston and forgot abt the pains and cold. Was trying to carry more loads for lower cg...phy rox guys.had great balance throughout the journey thnx to the army boots and my 15kg load.Reach the foot and had 1 bowl of tom-yam-seafood, 2 plates of pattiya nasi fried rice, 4 cups of milo with lester. it was yummy lah.then took many crazy pics at train stations with MY ODAC frens.

wat i wanna say:
1) Never forget to bring a jacket, sleeping bag and slippers for camps in the mountain

2) Thank you bob for teaching me some survival tricks...like lighting campfire even when the branches are wet

3) Thank you winston for your jacket

4)Thank you zhi heng for youe extra t-shirt

5) Thank you anamda lee, kelvin, senj chey for hugging me

6)Thank you mr sim for your soup and almond jelly

7)Thnk you gunong ayam as i understood myself better

8) Thank you boots for very good grip

9)Thank you lord as i did not fall nor hurt myself nor a single scratch

10) Thank you mum for praying for me

11)Thank you gal for putting me back to my usual track( i left the ring and memories and some stuff there)

12)Thank you JJ for gaying with me

13) Thank you amandas for your sweet songs

14) Thank you mrs lee for your photo shots the were just wonderful

15) last but not least Thank you everyone as i got to understand you guys better and most importantly myself better ODAC rox wolala

WHy did you pray 4 me!

2006-12-03T11:18:00.000-08:00

You know... recently just recently my cousin brother one of my beloved cousin brother passed away at the age of 21 thnx to lukuimea. I cried... he was so young...so bloody young. Recently i had a dream:

"In this dream a lady dressed in indian prayer coustum came to my house and then came up to me. Next moment my body was 45 degree to the floor...the lady was holding on to my adams' apple with my weight on her lap and my head slanted back. My whole neck turned blue except my adams' apple. My body was shevering from pain. "

When i woke up, i just forgot about the dream and went trail jogging with one of my cousin.During that jogging a black snake was lying directly on the path motionless. Thinking it was dead, i went forward to carry it for a trill. At that moment the snake suddenly moved and tried to strike my hand but failed. I was shocked, naturally i spew my "tag-lines" on that snake. Went i went home and told this to my mum she said smth that moved me "its nothing luckly the day before the god we prayed to have saved your life by taking away the poison"

Shit...i am evil god i am evil. Why did you save me Why.You know i also found out that every single day my mother pray for the well-being for me.Why mumu Why!...i know my life is short pls i feel bad when i see ppl pray for my health and well-being.Some time i wish i can die faster.At times i wonder there is no point living so i wanna call it off.At least i pray when i die i wan alot of ppl to attend my "party"....Im not crazy it is my desire.

Rejected W.O seeing..u better take a good LOOK!!

2006-11-22T07:15:00.002-08:00

Today was carrying a 10kg load with my army boots plus a bag full of $130 worth of "goods" to Ubin. Was planning to pass these "goods" to my fren(hope that we are still fren). Yes fate had it, me fren does not want it. Rejected it w.o looking.....You know, i really did not know wat to do. Come on these bloody 10 items each represents one week of time frame. Total 10 weeks since 15 sept. Cant recall how many shops i went up and down for these "goods". Now you know the "reason" fren?

Was totally confused.You know my frens frm ODAC (Amanda Lim..Amanda Lee etc most of the ppl frm ODAC) said i was very sincere and my goal will be accomplished. These ppl expectations...my feelings were shattered the moment the "goods" were rejected.

I don care anymore, wat has happen let it happen. Yes the truth is it stills bothers me. I don care abt anyone anymore. Wanna live mylife the way i want it to be. I choose my own fate. You know wat really motivated me, you wanna know wat made me NOT shed a single tear is the sms i received from my fren Amanda ( my fellow ODAC mate). Here it is:

" ...Raj it is ok then la ur a great guy.....at least you had a courage to express how much u liked her so no regrets"

Thnx Amanda i owe you one, and by the way i gonna move on in my life. I don blame my fren for not taking those "goods". Let her wish come true as again i would say my love was sincere. I will therefore not waste time..money on her and move on. It was a great pain to see the "goods" being donated by my own hands to salvation army.Just one last qn, Was there a single moment throughout this year that you ever loved me?

Rejected W.O seeing..u better take a good LOOK!!

2006-11-22T07:15:00.001-08:00

Rejected W.O seeing..u better take a good LOOK!!

2006-11-22T07:15:00.000-08:00

Come on read this!

2006-11-13T08:53:00.000-08:00

Anyway after my mid-course exams, i have been pissed off thanx to my mum. I do agree with her that A' levels are tough and that you have to study and update your knowledge countinuously. But then cant i have life outside. Whenever i play com games, watch TV, play pool, or simply go out she will go on nagging. " Why cant you stay at home and study... Why are you going out and so on.." This just drives me nuts.

Secondly my sis who is in pri 1 got 84 and above for all her subjects. Instead of prasing her she keeps on comparing her results with other students' results. OMG wats happening yah. Are parents nowadays having high expectation on their kids. " Parental high or low expectation can inflict emotional damage on the kids- Wagner 2000"

Thirdly i realised something, people around me( mum, dad, aunts etc) are very tradational minded. Come on, i am a free- thinker. I believe that, what our ancestors have said have an underlying reasons. I am no fool to believe those lame stories. Like young boys/gals don't go out late at night or else the ghost would take you away... You must pray to god so that evil spirits will not take over you...such craps. I believe that our ancestors would had frighten those kids is for their own good, as they might fear that if a kid hangs out in dark lonely spots he/she might be abducted, so they use ghost as a play tool to scare the daylights off these kids. Our ancestors would had wanted us to pray to god so that we get enlightened or shld i say get the positive energies thats been generated through prayers. So again ghost comes as a play tool. I am a man of science however i strongly believe that science and relegions do co-exist in one way or the other.

Lastly i do agree that it has been months since i prayed to god..visit a temple. But then i know that all relegion teaches men to be good and do good for the others!!!. At least i am a proud to say that i do give up my seats for the elders in trains. Buy first hand items or at least items with high standards and quality when donating items to the poor and needy. At least i am a man with guts who dares to take "justice" in my hands like helping my bros to quit smoking, spew scarsm at ppl in the public who do not respect or least give up their seats for others. I am a man of my words, i promise you like for instance i don smoke i will never smoke. Period.

Why the hack am i stating this is because i want everyone out there to realise something. Please when you have kids in the future be a good role model to them, they will look up to you. Its you who mould the future of your child. Expectations are good but have realistic targets. Practise a bit of common sence. No wander you lack it as common sence are never common.

2006-11-12T08:37:00.000-08:00

Speed Climbing over 400 feet in 4:25

Do you believe in this?

NO WAY!!

2006-11-09T03:41:00.000-08:00

Look at those two insane fools geeting a shot. Anyway this pic was taken to give a stupid face and i was showing off the pearly whites of mine.. cause thats the only white i have. Ooops was a rude, erm.. if i say its ok i guess.

WALLA! could not reach the top,arr felt like going haywire. Guess wat you know that TJC guy, was a real pro man. Wait till i get my hands on my first video ( still with cassendra). I will show you the monkey in me. Anyway that video, i was timing myself and did not stick to the same colour cause first time dude.

The video where i was wearing the blue T-shirt, was the most erm..shld i say difficult climb of all my climbs.
1) seek to the same coloured tiles/stones.
2)The tiles/stones had been made smaller could not hold long had to move
3) Little tiles further apart and had to depend more on lead jumps for me!

But that TJC is a real pro still got one guy frm MJC, wait till i get my hands on that video of his. I real living spider-man. You know you saw me thinking for a few mins in the video ( the shirt is blue and no logos). Was thinking, wat happen if i cannot reach the top cause sticking to the same colour and wanna beat myself.

I learned 6 vital lessons:
1) Have great arm power when compared to my size
2) Able to leap high
3) No fear of hights
4) Balance quit bad, ( need to twist your body to overcome the moment wahaha phy rox)
5) Need to learn the use of S dunno wat use the foot to scale up the wall shld i say the toes
6) Have great potential ( not proud cause she say is my determination and will power lah and a bit of skill only nothing else)

2006-11-07T22:44:00.000-08:00

rock_climbing 3

this is the pro climber frm TJC. Look at how cool and fast he climbs this wall. I tried so hard to climb this face but failed WTH. Anyway you need gd balance tats wat i learned

2006-11-07T08:33:00.000-08:00

rock_climbing 2

This is the most difficult part of the rock face. Cannot reach the top. Worst still had to follow the same coloured tiles/rock. But then got great support. The monks(frm the chinese temple) beside the church did pop in to look. wahaha so kukumalu.But then the instructer say got arm power now have to utilise my balance.

2006-11-07T08:21:00.000-08:00

Rock_ climbing

this is one of the difficult face as i am sticking to the same coloured rocks. Rock_climbing roxs. Join me when i go 4 rock climbing in 'Climbing Asia'

2006-11-05T08:53:00.000-08:00

Hi there, my MT is over and in 2 days so will the OP. Here is a little story i wanna share with you guys:

Once there lived a puny and a wisp of a guy called Antony. Since young, he was searching for something called love. You know love makes the world go round. He was happy when he saw his fellow cousins getting tangled in the web of love. He had the cravings to fall into such traps.

At 16 years of age, he thought that he had fallen into this web of love...lets call it J.B. Fate shld have it, J.B loved another guy. He was least bothered abt it. Till his graduation nite, some of his frens stuff up his nose. Antony went haywire, he indulge himself on Cybergames till 12 midnite before going home. That night he was indulging himself with coke and grapes till the fairy grandfather popped in. His very words lifted his sprits

" Why worry my child, its ok if you don have J.B why be sadden abt it. May be there is some one out there better the J.B for you don worry and take care."

After that Antony forgot abt J.B and started to move on in live. In the early summer, Antony got trapped in this web again, lets call it WHY. Again fate shld have it, WHY had no feelings for him. He was sad initially but then tried to cheer up but failed. He is still trapped in this web and does not one to let it go. Till now he prays to the lord that at least in his next birth he wans WHY to love him in return.

You know Antony is a crazy kid, who is blind to things thats happening around him. He is still a child. His mum and aunts still feeds him. He hates ppl who does not shower respect to elders in the public and does shout at them. Rest assured, Antony has now started to understand the world around him. Yah its kind of late, but then hope he picks up fast. Till now, every morning he prays for the well-being of WHY before going to sch.So let me join Antony and pray that WHY is happy and never shed a single tear. Hope at least in the next life both of them a toghther.

KFC or ANGEL

2006-11-03T09:18:00.000-08:00

Today i had a great time with Spencer, Kent...( our gang) in KFC at 888 plaza. Had a great time yanking abt movies... everything under the sun. Did not realise we were in the KFC for the past 2 hrs. 12E does really rox man. Gonna miss all this next year better enjoy now. You know wat i really forget abt my pains and had a great day. I was telling kent... how sometime ppl tend not to tell you their personal password but then tell someone else... does not seat beside you when there is opportunity instead but 'run' away... does not bother replying to your BLOODY messages nor say sorry cant reply the next day...This had made me to think that shld i end up becoming violent i know the reason.

" Seeking other faults is a dire sin, seek out your fauts and other merits"

So how? Is it my fault and your merit? only god holds the answer. Not only that this experience had thaught me one important lesson. I am indeed the worlds greatest fool, be it to still love anyone after a rejection or to still trust and believe in one person after a betrayal. One word to describe me FOOL. Raj is a FOOL and is still a FOOL till 12 dec i hope. Amandaes u gals rox. To understand my feelings and support me. Thnx for that. Maybe i am a wierdo thats why ppl are like that to me. So do you feel wierd when i am around. If so i will move far away frm you litterally starting next year... Super FAR.... I know that deep down i will fail again but then faliure my stepping stones. You see i am being a fool again. No wonder i am the devil....... Angel and devil can never co-exist one shld perish... i will perish no words no turn backs...... I am the choosen one to seat on the trone of XXX. I am the true XXX.

2006-11-03T09:12:00.000-08:00

Smoking kills... not a joke pls

this is me and me only... anyway the objective of this video is to emphasis the need for teenagers not to smoke in a "YOUTH-CUSTOMIZED" manner... WAGNER ( 2000)

Time for a change?

2006-11-01T08:45:00.000-08:00

You know i realised something that when you have a inner motivation you can acheive what you want...no matter what the goal is you will get it. Similar to my life. You know the rock wall which i failed to climb when i was out with Winston? Yah i did it and took a video of it. Preety interesting, guess i did it at my personal best timing. Auntie roxs dude. You know i wanted some stuff but can never get it... going crazy man...whatever the angel needs will be done but then whatever i need will it be done? I am the decolion devil wahaha....Heaven and Hell can never meet/ merge. Sometimes i don know why that i get mood out easily whenever i see couples outside. Very strange of me. I am not desperate pls...you know i have plenty of resources...easy avalibility of grass, backups,drinks but i had never used it and will never. I want to change but fate is not letting me.

" The earth needs me, the Hell wants me but the heavens hates me cause i am a pain in the ass"

Till now i still believe love is only true in fairy tales. I think i have slow reaction to things thats happening around me. What happened in the past and present is affecting me now. Hope i will be a man with no feelings in the future and i want to so as to forget the pains in life. Some times you see me with fuck face in class.. cause i am demoralized. Whenever i am demoralized i tend to forget my lines for OP .... thats the reason why at times my OP is nice and at times sux to the core.

I am not like other boys or teens who are physically fit and good at sport, i am not a person who can easily make one happy at first sight, not a person who is smart, not a person who is good at words but then i am the person who is ... Ther is a mountain higher then me thats why i am not destinated. Worst till i am the decolion devil

060915 wats that? I know how abt YOU!

2006-10-28T09:58:00.000-07:00

You know its kind of painful if u nv receive the same "Prema" ( ask GG wat is it lah) that you shower on one person. In live you shld not be very narrow minded. This is the think that i want like fren, hubby,career,life and etc. If you have such thoughts then when you don get wat you want it will be very painful. You know ppl say time will heal all pains, erm in my life its been 2 mths or shld i say 8 mths and the pain is still there. Chinese rox man.. love it...enjoy it...But 'cant' have it. I don know why that i am so unlucky maybe there is always a mountain higher then me. So that might be the reason why i am not destinated. It will be in my fond memories of the events that took place this year....060915. I will be gone on 7-11 dec to G.A (ODAC) hope to overcome my burderns at least. Next year hope to start anew. You know "Prema" is like a drug. It can give you both happiness and sorrows. In my case its erm.... sorrows. Nv blame anyone for it lah pls. Jus that i have to become strong you see.

wat is ur believe

2006-10-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

Gotta see it to BELIEVE it

I believe that one shld fall in love but remember its jus only true in fairytales .Erm........ its not as you think it is... its a clip of ppl around the world telling wat they believe jus like i do ..... i am not that cheap

found out the truth

2006-10-25T07:13:00.000-07:00

walla... jus found out that 'my' auntie hate me and does not wan anything associated with me. Erm maybe its my wild guess but then i kind of broken down.

"Do you ever feel like breaking down, do you ever feel out of place, smt you jus don belong and no one understands you..."

Yes backstreet boys i don belong here.. auntie hates me. The one i respect and love alot.

Chances knocks once on your door, but mine will be twice. If the results are not to my expectation then i shall be a XXX. After 12 Dec raj shall perish and rise again as XXX. Raj is hanging on jus for the PW and the ODAC trip. After which he shall become XXX. I hate everything i see and hear. Why in the world am i like that. XXX is indeed who i truly am and will become one. Don ask me anything abt wat XXX or wat has happen jus dump your comments and i shall read it. Bloody sencertive i guess thnx... imagine tooo much thnx..... one fool of a nesh thnx.......wat more am I... a bloody bag of bones with no "life" thnx

Wat a great day u Missed it!

2006-10-23T08:14:00.000-07:00

CYCLING

Today went cycling with: Winston & Dwayne. 60 km ride from morning 0745 till afternoon 1530. Destinations... Yishun to S'pore river... S'pore river to Beach Rd... Beach Rd to Mt Fabour Summit... Mt Fabour Summit to Harbour Front...Harbour Front to Macritichie ...Macritchie to serangoon and back to Yishun. Was able to maintain my speed between 28-35 kmh. Max speed was 43.5 kmh. Cannot beat Winston 49.35 kmh. Walla Dwayne there is room for improvement( Gear Handaling and speed). Need to comment one thing he was the safe rider in busy/calm road unlike us. Nearly me and Winston got knock down by 2 Buses which made a sudden stop. One Blach Merce Car which refused to turn into PIE leading to Changi at upper Thomson after we cycle , and pointed middle fingure at us. Was a great day under the sun and riding. Many upslopes to overcome.

Learned few tips in cycling frm the 'great' Winston. Firstly my foot postioning when speeding down slopes and at sharp bends. Thnx Winston was very useful. Secondly to be a safe rider in roads frm dwayne. But Dwayne i doubt it is of any use cause i am a "daredevil" love speeding especially in busy roads with my fav stunt( no leg on peddle and no resting on seat instead on body of bike). Have to admit at one pt i nearly topple off my bike so pls don try unless u DARE.

Rock Climbing

Went to Gelang Church ( our house capt church building) for rock climbing with Winston and Cassendra with her church frens. Was feeling cramps all over but then i managed to climb the first 4 walls ( of course with difficuilty). Learned frm cassendra how to scale up a rock wall to get ready equipments like putting the Dynamic Rope to the top with no safety rope. I managed to convince her to let me gop as it involved risk but with a safety rope lah. Was able to do it. Was thinking of auntie when doing all the four obstacles. The firth one was a killer. Had to assend horizontally at the first stage. Was going up with alot of difficulties and cramps on my leg and hands thnx to cycling. Managed to reach the top( 7 tile plus the horizontal challenge) but then not the two tile to the summit. Cannot take it. Gave up many times but then when i look down auntie will motivate me to carry on but Oooh shit not able to reach the top. Saw and talk with many pro climbers like cassendra love talking with them.Learned to use many other equipments excluding ATC for belaying. Dwayne you missed it all. Winston was struggling to reach the 3 tile thnx to cycling rite winston keep pn saying i self-fish not teaching him the route up ..How to ? Nvm later walk along the gelang and ate supper it was very erm...SIOK man !

2006-10-20T05:28:00.000-07:00

siok

haha sorry gg kent was jus playing u know rite

2006-10-20T05:24:00.000-07:00

My class the best

my super class

2006-10-18T05:33:00.000-07:00

Cute Kitty Akamaru

i am always attracted by the cats eye dude.

2006-10-18T05:32:00.000-07:00

kittens

so small!

2006-10-17T07:57:00.001-07:00

My Kittens

But then dogs are men best fren

2006-10-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

Re: Kitten Playtime

cats roxs

2006-10-17T07:56:00.000-07:00

Fatboy Slim's song

You love cats or kitten erm let me see

2006-10-17T07:55:00.001-07:00

SIX CUTE KITTENS!!!

love cats yah!

2006-10-17T07:55:00.000-07:00

Kittens

lovnn' it?

2006-10-17T07:54:00.000-07:00

Cat's food time

here it is...

2006-10-17T07:53:00.000-07:00

Un chaton qui a sommeil 眠たい仔猫

many more...

2006-10-17T07:52:00.000-07:00

Kitten Henriette playing in bed

more...

2006-10-17T07:51:00.001-07:00

Henriette fights

Thought u will love it

2006-10-17T07:51:00.000-07:00

Chats chats chats01! 猫猫猫01！

2006-10-17T07:44:00.000-07:00

sceared japanese gurls

wat the hell... nv bring a gal to scary movies guys later no life

2006-10-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

kingdom hearts 2

war walla not bad

RESULTS

2006-10-16T05:30:00.000-07:00

ok here is my result...PHy A, MAths B, MT C, GEO E,CHEM U,GP # WHERE CAN I GO... GO TO HELL

2006-10-16T03:41:00.000-07:00

Parents Wish

2006-10-13T09:08:00.000-07:00

Encouragement and Praises (Fragment: I not Stupid Too)

Disappointment

2006-10-13T08:38:00.000-07:00

Today i was utterly disgusted with my rude behaviour outside sch. I was at stevenson rd at 10.22 pm waiting for bus 190. 3 buses left, packed with commuters but then these commuters did not move to the back of the bus. I was very pissed off when i saw the next bus there was a large space between the middle compartment i could not control my toungue and said C.B. why ppl not moving... Then i told my fren tat this is a reason why i hate s'pore before squeezing into the crowd. The captain must have had overheard wat i said.Then he mention he was closing the door in reply my fren said close...close then he said don show ur fu#$%ing attitude. Started to reflect and realise how rude i could have sounded jus now. Now i being to realise that toungue is very powderfull should be very careful of wat i say in future if given a chance i will nv do that.

But then i decided tat in future i gonna film s'pore attitude/courtesy and put it into a foreign website like youtube or maybe in channel news asia wif the ppl face filmed. wanna teach these ppl wat is ment when i mean respect/courtesy. Of all this incident i am scared "she" is utterly disappointed in me. God help me to make up for wat has happen pls.

2006-10-09T11:37:00.000-07:00

Smoking Kills!

you are very rite

2006-10-07T11:18:00.000-07:00

bikes

super cool tricks mus buy a bike dude

2006-10-05T00:04:00.000-07:00

cardtrick

2006-10-04T23:45:00.000-07:00

Chicken Little

Mid-Course walla

2006-10-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone the mid-course is finally over its time to disco.Whether u pass or not is a different storey for time beign lets enjoy and cheers! everyone.Let me tell you my share yah:

GP= scared wrote out of point did on sci&tech for pp2 i turned out to be the only jack ass who supported source B omg hope able to pass GP least with a C grade.

MT= Thnx to my headache and long hours of tamil end up sleeping and cound not concentrate on pp2. Wow so tough did not expect it lol hope to score in content for pp1

Maths=Could not prove the MI don know y? moreover my diff cannot do cant see where i am going wrong hope to get a C grade at least no E or U pls

Chem=Let me see where to start erm... bascically did not study for it yah ok fine wat ev!!!

Phy= can do lah its jus that scared to make careless lo it also applies to maths yes able to prove period is approx 5.2.still not much of confidence in the elec field and so on hope to score all the way till grav at least hope a C nth less

Geo=??? tats the way i fell only able to state loads of example

2006-09-25T07:34:00.000-07:00

RAJ

This is a video wahaha of my fren sia

2006-09-25T07:32:00.000-07:00

DIE!!!

This is no offence to any one but then the video on the army forces looks preety cool ah! I wanna join the forces and serve the mother nation.Lets wait and see wat the future hold.

I am not a basturd nor a stalker!!!!!!

2006-09-24T08:02:00.000-07:00

What the hell is all this about. The moment i steped into innova i wanted to give up everything and start my life as a new man, full of freedom all because of an angel. There is my bloody satan who is shadowing me since my teens. Forcing me to go back to wat i use to be ; A bloody hooligan full of foul words when conversing with frens. Is this wat they call yellow ribion...?. Hey satan you are a bloody 'kid' i guess full of bloody thoughts frm now onwards i will nv ever think of going back of who i use to n don force me. If i were to go back u can forget about living as i will nv give a shit abt my life and will "kill" you . Pls stop wat you are doing. Before i go i wan to tell everyone i am not a basturd nor a stalker. I had nv stalk and yet to basturd any one. I don like your bloody face i am straight forward and spew scarsm at you in the past.So pls don let me take up "arms" i don wan and had not so far. Don pls. You said you will NEVER cross my life so don GY or else i have no choise but to ... pls don i wan to live a new life. Behave like an 'adult' or these 20 years is worth not living. All i can say is you are ...

sorry love is it gd bye? i don know!

2006-09-16T04:02:00.000-07:00

Wow do i look like a mad fool ya tats wat i am Bro/Sis.Thats the objective of this photo to look stupid haha maybe i don look stupid i am one.

By the way i kind of worried that SHE might lose concentration in her studies and not bubbly as before. Hope not i wan her to do well 4 her mid-course. Do you know smth whenever u pray to God sincerely ur prayers will be answered. Do u remember in one of my previous post i prayed to God and asked 4 strength if she rejected me.. Ya he had answered my prayers.Now i don feel as bad as before.

Do admit still got felling but life is nv a bed of roses.Got to move on. Hope oneday SHE will develop feelings for me.But then i jus wan to be her close fren...very close fren who is there to share her laughter,sorrows bascially everything under the sun.Will she give me the chance? HaHa don know lah.I tell you guys she is very nice and the sweetest gal i had ever met.You know i ttold myself if she rejected me i will go and indulge myself in Malbro..Winston (smoking la).But then she told me not to take it..i will never take it.Its a promise.God now i pray to you that as long as i am alive i would like this releationship to countinue and blossom.I wan her to be happy and pls give her the courage and be with her as you are with me.

If you are reading this gal to tell you sincerely i still love you and will countinue to love you, But then all i ask you is never to ignore me.Pls don ignore me its very heartining to see you walk away.

This is wat SHE said...

2006-09-15T06:51:00.000-07:00

Today was one of my happiest day...seriously. I told her the truth guess wat? she told the truth.Ya rejection again but a blessing in disgisess. I felt very enlightened and was not very sad when compared to last time. You know she was very nice, she was very sad and i could see tears welled up in her eyes when she said it was a rejection.This was the first time i saw her in that state. I was heart-broken when i saw her in that state not because i was rejected lah.She was very sweet yah. She said i was a very nice guy, i am very thankful for it. THNX GAL. I promise not to eat grass and forbide him too yah.Hope to start afresh....

Wan to know the truth? here it is

2006-09-11T04:31:00.000-07:00

Hey guys for people who have found out this blog pls zip up your mouth and not tell her....For guys like W,J pls don be a gal and be big mouth i beg you.If you guys got the courage to tell her,say it in front of my face that "i know her and your blog". Its preety obvious yah...ok its none other then ttt.ttt if u are reading this i wan you to know that i do love you.I dont want to tell you initially because i dont wan you to lose your concentration in your studies. I wan you to do well for mid-course.By the way to tell you and everyone out there, the truth...Its my cousins who is the Mr u know wat. Believe it or not its my cousin.They know that i love you ttt.They wanted me to tell you.For your info the dateline is my birthday.They wan to see if you remember my birthday.They did not tell me at all, wanna see my reaction and your reaction. They wanted to disclose their identity and my love for you on my birthday.Luck shld have it it has become my fault. I don blame you or anyone. All i wanted to say is that trust = love where there is no trust there is no true love.I trust you, So do you? And to speak the truth i was very hurt when NO one believed me. To tell you the truth i was very pissed off the whole day.You one another truth Kent,Lim, XXX,Zhi heng knows this...that i love you.By the way thnx kent you trusted me if you too did not trust me then i donno wat could had happen today.Thnx Kent.

Sleepless nite

2006-09-10T04:04:00.000-07:00

Walla, let me tell you something about myself.For those "BusyBody" who have found out my blog before i told you pls keep this a secret.This is like my personal diary only some lucky few have the key to this blog.Rest assured when the time is right i will tell all of you the existence of my blog.Yesterday i could not sleep the whole day.I was very sad.I went haywire.Does she really have a stead? She told me NO last time wat if she is lying...Oh my god i don wish such things will happen.You know i wanted her pic desperately guess what i found half a doven of it. was very happy i suppose.I am going nuts man.What should i do? Is she distancing herself away frm me?Who is she? erm let me see.... its for me to know for you to find out.I have a doven of her photos in my com i can show you her pic but u think i stupid?HaHa. I really love her..i got asked her before will she go steady with in a informal way(for fun lah) she said she have not counsidered it but then she dunno and maybe.How to believe it maybe its like an excuse or jus to comfort me...During that time i was very emotially disturbed.Wat to do. Love is blind ah?You know what i am afarid she will rejects me.Nowadays i knock off at only 2-4 am .Thinking of her.I LOVE YOU ...I LOVE YOU...I LOVE YOU.Why am i born like this,why should i ever exist,Why should i fall in love.

My silent and sincere prayer

2006-09-09T10:24:00.000-07:00

Wow that day was an interesting day i suppose.Bringing back fond memories yah.One spirit the spirit Saggi. One voice the voice of 0612E.And one heart the heart of INNOVA. Since when i became so creative.Let me see..cannot say wahaha.Ya today i went to watch the Movie the "Lttle Man". It was a wonderful movie filled with laughter,Sick jokes and etc. You know wat i went to catch the movie at 2200. Ya i know i am sick.Did u know in the movie all the people /humans were 16 years and above...Gotchaa Ya the movie was rated NC 16. Thats not the point beside me was a couple,behind me was another couple and directly in front of me was another couple.Whats happening!!Initially i was in the mood swing till my cousin and i changed our seat.HER memories were haunting me,How i wish she was beside me.Lim yiling (my sis) is having such thoughts bad,Rina( my second sis) is having such thoughts stupid.Is this my desire?

What is desire and Maya(illusion in tamil)? Is this feeling for her,wan to watch movies with her,wan her a desire or iz these just Maya.There she is near me not close to me my dear sisters.Every single day i keep on having dreams about her,my feelings for her is going wild.I feel like telling her right now itself sis, But then i wont i will try to keep the promise i made to you sis.I will only tell her after the OP to be exact.I am going crazy about her, you know there is this saying " I prayed for God to make me love but he gave me troubled people to work with.I prayed to God to make me strong he gave me problems to solve."Likewise this is my silent prayer to God..."Dear God i pray that i and her will go steady but however it is your will, If you think that this is Ok then bless me and her,If you thing this is wrong then give me the strength to bear the pain and let not our releationship be gone down the drain" Now it is up to Him, the supreme lord. I am a strong believer in God, I believe God will give us what is essential to us. I herby prounce and his humble feet......By the way i do pray to all God as i believe all God is one.

Nature of my love

2006-09-08T07:24:00.000-07:00

Walaa see the nature is so peaceful and calm.Very soothing view yah.Thats the way i feel when she is close by.I don wish to be near her but close to her.I wan her to know that no matter wht is the reply frm her i still love her.You know today i dreamed abt her.In my dreams she told me " Don love me like me" I don know the actual meaning of that but then nothing is concidential.This might be a hidden message frm the supreme lord.I really dont know.But i know something in the dream whe she gave me a light and smooth slap on my cheek and her hair brushed my face it felt real.How i wish i was in the dream.She was beaming with joy. I really love her dont know how to express my extreme point of view.Very confused sia.Why should i firstly fall in love.Why is there love in the first place?Is life without love worth not living?I dont know whether she will accecpt me but i know this if she rejects which i am mentally prepared,i might turn into evil habits.Feeling scared.Please don talk or mention about the issue if she rejects me.I wont be able to take it, i will break down. I have tried to change internally for her iz there anything i have to change externally for her? "Baby don say goodbye,say good night cause the first thing i want to see the next morning is you"

2006-09-07T11:07:00.000-07:00

True Love..

this is kind of moving

2006-09-07T11:04:00.000-07:00

god punishs

walla interesting

Frens @ 2

2006-09-07T10:29:00.000-07:00

There are times when i am having chi-chat sessions with my frens,and topics on girlfren is brought i wonder why iz my life so sucky,most of my frens have a girlfren why not me.Ya i do agree in JC it is to study thats your sole purpose but to me when u study with u stead and as long it is an healthy releationship u can study trust me i am still able to concentrate and able to study with her.You know a pen is mighter then the sword. Whenever i frens speak they do joke abt me of not having a galfren.For that i am not hurt wat hurts me is to hear them say foul stuffs.Remember yeo u asked me when we were shopping for my sis birthday,"Raj don u in your life ever wan to have a galfren"When i told u that shopping for sis birthday present or gal fren is a waste of time.Does it rings a bell.This is my reply shopping for them is indeed a waste of time unless u have love for them.U know in order to buy the ring for HER i went down with my cousins and kent to many shops.Up and Down, Up and Down.Ya i might think why is this fool always dress in red(my pic) red and white are my favourite colour.Tats the reason MICCO ROXS!! wahaha. I am trying to calm myself down dudes.Back to the topic,i tell u this u know love iz about trust. TRUST = LOVE.Whener i call her out she tags along a fren.It hurts me u know there iz no trust.I don know if thats the exact reason but i still love her.I LOVE YOU!!!.You see here i am bold and able to write many stuff but when i see her i forget myself.Stammer for words.Wahaha a classics storey ah! but it isnt.I hope we will be together.What is meant to be mine will be mine.Are u destined for me?only u can say Yes or NO

Wat is the meaning of frenship?

2006-09-07T09:47:00.000-07:00

WHAT are frens for...to share ur joy,sorrows.Most importantly to be there when u need them right.Look to ur left u see me and my to frens frm AJC.We had been frens for 4 years so far.We promised not to let go and treasure every moment we had especially the guy(thanesh) the fellow sticking out his toungue.Now u see we have gone seperate ways.He in AJ while i in IJ.This is life. Nothing is permenent in this bloody world filled with hatred and egoisum.Except this truth bro/sis.Therefore treasure every moment.Everyday is like a pit-stop in your life.It will teach u the meaning of life,love; an important lesson.Open your inner eyes and see the world around.Why am i telling u thiz? Cause the time will come when we have to go seperate ways.Some of us would be lucky to meet one-another again while others wont.Live every moment to the fullest.Live life like theres no tomorrow.A true frenship will last ever.Is our frenship true?Only time can answer. Before i go i would like to say i don wan to miss u gal(my love).I wan to be the lucky few where our releationship never dies. I will be pleased if in my last breath u are there.Not only u but all of our frens. By the way i wish that pls don forget me.10 years down the road when we see one another we might not remember the names but pls don forget my face.Talk to me.Ya gal u know we might never get married nor go steady its all in your hands but i will treasure your memories till i dance with Mr.RIPER!!!. You are the one who made me go crazy.When i thought gals are a bunch of burderns and bitchy, you proved me wrong.You are the only person i see as an angel from heaven...so far i had ever seen.I don wish to let go of such an angel.You know i have many contacts trust me u are the best gal in terms of character i had ever met.It jus goes to show your family background,culture and everything about you.I LOVE YOU.To me gal love is nothing about going steady or shopping or getting married and having all the 5C's in life.But it is to see one-another being happy and be happy.Life is a dream gal realise it.You know this is a form of evidence that i have been loving you since April.When i tell u the truth u might think i am kind of bullshitting but this is the truth.I might never heve the luxuary of time to tell every puny details therefore i am jotting it down here.I dedicate this to u.My LOVE!!!

What exactly iz LOVE???

2006-09-07T04:32:00.000-07:00

I'm a boy she iz a gal wat more can i say...I was frm NP she was frm SJ how can i make it any more obvious.Wat exactly iz love? Live On Values Everyday!!!
1) Whenever i see her i feel like staring deep into her eyes
2)Whenever i see her i feel like giving a peck on her lips
3)Whenever i see her i feel motivated to pursue my dreams
4)Whenever i see her i feel like hugging her
5)Whenever i see her i feel like kicking more of my bad habits
6)Whenever i see her i feel proud cause its she who transformed the beast in me
7)Whenever i see her i feel like saying I LOVE YOU GAL
8)Whenever i see her i feel like saying
DON move away frm me
9) Whenever i see her i wan to be a
better or perfect person
Now i have changed, to a whole new better person iz this temporary only tine will say.TIME AND TIDES WAIT FOR NO MAN. Should i tell her now only u should say!Now i am living the life of a human living my life with human values.

Love

2006-09-06T22:19:00.000-07:00

"A House is built by hands

But a home is built by heart"

Hey guys, u know today i went out wif her...excited initially till her fren pop in.Wats happening.They went on talking ,though they included me in i was kind of mood out.Dunno went to tell her the truth that i love her.U know gal..(if u know who u are by now) Show me the meaning of being lonely, iz thiz the feeling i have to walk with, tell me why i cant be there where u are? For your info... Your life iz driven by money mine iz drizen by LOVE!!!. Iz thiz very chime? Then u are stupid..haha jus kidding.

The cosmic truth...(mine)

2006-09-06T09:18:00.000-07:00

Life-Yours is full of sorrows sEE it. LIfe is nv a bed of roses. While you are liviNG, live life to the fullest. YEO..YEO bro/sis nv forget thiz!!! Be happy and make evereyone happy. Hurt noboby Help everbody.The lips that pray are holier then hands that serve.....Do u get it? If u cant figure it out u are the dumbest idiot ever to exist...u stupid moron..sorry to be vulguar but pls wake up!!!! Got the pic?!!

Why Ignore when u can talk...

2006-09-05T06:16:00.000-07:00

Some times i feel she iz ignoring me wat to do... see lo... if thiz continues even after mid-course dunno wat to do...she iz kind of my estacy pill...i nv give up whenever i see her loh...she iz my fire....am i very lame.....but ii MEAN IT ....u see i reduse my foul launguages cause of her....whenever she distance herself away frm me i become evil... wat to do......need help.Sometimes i feel like breaking down...feel out of place...feel everyone iz pushing me....only music calms me..Is this life is all about....GG u said that after Jannah rejected me u said i will find a better person when i found one do u think i will get hold of her.Ask u guys will u support me....life iz nv a bed of roses.....but my life iz full of thorns till i met her and my other gd frens in ijc not forgetting my beloved sec sch fren harris.U guys gave me joy thnx i will not forget u guys and GALS...especially u gal.

Not again

2006-09-04T06:20:00.000-07:00

walla the promos are coming too fast wat to do cant study at home.. need profesional help.. need motivation. WTF life is nv fair. Why are we studying we are not gonna do diffec- or vector prob to solve any prob.U agree with me. But watever the reason i mus study ...cause she said it. You know whenever i look in her eyes it reminds me of heaven/joy.
"she iz so fine,i wanna make her mine
her lipstick taste so sweet"
The reason why i did not mix with my fren/cousin who are gangesters iz because of her. The reason i avoid cigaretee iz because of her. The reason i am studying n not letting go of any subj iz because of her.So before i go i will like to say the reason iz you gal.

3rd n final love

2006-09-03T08:15:00.000-07:00

Hey guys... you know smth if u are short,skinny,dark or anything along the line forget abt getting a company( ur love/gal). You know my 1st love was an indian gal whom i knew for 11 years did not like me cause of the above mention reasons. The 2nd gal was a malay gal whom i knew for 4 years she too rejected me cause of the above mention reason. At that moment my fren told me u will find a better gal.Erm let me see ...now it iz a chinese gal who starts to ignore me, u know wat i love her 4 who she iz not 4 wat she iz.If this too fails then i will become the greatest 'councilour' as i know the thinking of gals of all races.Ha..ha.. hope i will not be a faliure this time....